Recently my commitment to an active lifestyle fueled with whole foods, and my zeal for sharing it with others was called into question rather bluntly by an observer who, among other things, told me that, “maybe if you lose weight someone will take you seriously.” Fortunately, I am blessed to have garnered the respect and trust of people who do take me seriously, regardless of what my current weight may or may not be. And I respectfully discontinued the conversation with this individual.
This is not the first time I have received this type of remark. In fact, it echoes a sentiment that I myself held for many years, and internalized so completely, that it contributed to a disordered pattern of eating and struggles with my body image, sense of self-worth and personal identity. It was not the first time, it likely won’t be the last, but it was the final push I needed in a series of events that have led me to actually begin writing this blog. I have been sitting with the idea of this blog for quite some time, so in some ways writing feels overdue, but I suppose in something like this, “better late than never,” certainly applies.
Sometimes I think I must be out of my mind to even think of entertaining the desire to share my thoughts in the very public forum that is the internet. But there is a dialogue regarding real food, health, obesity and activity that is occurring in this country and in the world today, that is legitimately lacking. There are stories that need telling, experiences and knowledge that ought to be shared, and while I think there are certainly voices being lent to the discourse, at an increasing rate I might add, I feel strongly about lending mine. As my knowledge of food and nutrition, my passion for athletics and my desire to make a difference in this world grows, I think it’s about time I start sharing what I have to say beyond the safe environments I’ve grown used to. Watch out world, Nadia has something to say!
And yet, it’s a very scary thing to face up and share personal things with people who will form an opinion of you without really knowing you. But as I reflect on the past 6 years of my life, and beyond, I have realized that not only have I faced scary or difficult things and survived, and even triumphed, but that my mere existence opens me up to judgement on a daily basis. Fear of being judged simply isn’t a good enough excuse to keep quiet anymore.
So here I am. I find that not only do I have things I want to say, but at this exciting crossroads in my life, I want to be able to capture where I’ve been and where I am going. At the end of 2013, I decided that in 2014 I would complete a triathlon. The idea to do this actually came a number of years before when I made a fitness bucket list, a story I hope to share another day. Little did I know that in training for, pursuing and completing my goal last year, I would fall in love with a sport for the first time in my life. And not only that, but this sport so completely seemed to complement other aspects of my life and the lifestyle that I had been striving to develop over the last 6+ years. Finding triathlon has helped me change my perception of myself, gave me access to a community of support, and is a framework within which I find new ways to challenge myself and grow.
It is my hope to use Nadia Tri(e)s as a forum to share anecdotes of my life as I try to chase down optimal health and wellness, to document the highs and lows of triathlon training and the other pursuits I try along the way, and to share my expanding knowledge of food and nutrition by way of fun, healthful recipes and ideas. And while all of this is my aim, I’m not entirely certain where this road will take me. Thus far, it’s been immensely rewarding, but not without its challenges. So I am going to try to take it one day at a time and welcome any readers to come along for the ride with me!
Thanks for reading, stay happy, and keep trying!